state of mind

sad dark dreary blah sleep apathy weather drain zap drip sun wine effort absent sleep sleep tasteless broke mentally physically gray roots age stranded stuck landlocked opposite of inspire withdraw hibernate disenchanted broke broke broke dependent stifle no focus meh love dog love family love friends leave me alone with my leaky ceiling and empty head everything a blur no courage to disappear empty empty empty bright flowers and blue oceans so blue and sun are calling hard to function independently of societal chains don't want leave sleep candy chocolate godiva yum